Monday, February 22, 2010

The Desert

Well I finally got my results from the PET scan today in the late afternoon. Just as I expected the bump under my arm is a lymph node with cancer, actually two little ones that feel like one.
The scan also showed 2 other lymph nodes near my chest wall. The good news, no major organs are involved. Besides the skin and the 4 lymph nodes that is all they found. The bad news, if, actually when I have surgery they will have to cut my breast plate open to get to those lymph nodes and also remove lymph nodes under my left arm also. So it's a much more invasive surgery than before.
Some other news, I will have to go on chemotherapy again. It is two new drugs they will be using on me this time. I see this a good and bad. Bad I have to go through chemo again- good that I still have a "weapon" against the cancer. My worst case scenario with this PET scan would have been if they told me it was in my organs and that I couldn't do chemo. Neither of those things happen. To add to the punch, I am going to call another Dr out of San Francisco that focuses on anti-cancer diets and acupuncture coupled with chemo. I am ready to pull out all my weapons on this cancer...even if it means giving up Starbucks (YES that's right people I said give up Starbucks! I mean business!!!)
Actually I feel better after my appt, yes it means a longer road but it's a road not a road block! Just a reminder for me to be grateful of all the things I have, people I love and trust in God to have method to all this madness. This Sunday Manny and I went to church and the sermon seem to hit closer to home than most. Father Rudy spoke of Jesus being sent through the desert and being tempted by the devil and he came through a long time of temptations and hardships. He explained that everyone has their time to spend in the desert but if you trust in God he will deliver great things and there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I am still in the desert, I know I will, I know I must get through this. God is on my side. My husband is on my side, My parents, My siblings, their kids, friends I sure have a lot of people on my side.

Thank you to everyone who posted comments here and on my Facebook wall, I may not always respond but know that I am reading and truly appreciative. Manny and I are really in awe of all the support you all have given us.

SMILE!
Kelly Freitas

13 comments:

Melissa Good Taste said...

Your such an inspiration. Stay strong, I think about you often. :) - MD

Anonymous said...

I love you Kelly! I just want you to know you mean so much to me and your story gives me strength daily!

So true "a longer road but NOT a road block" I feel really good about this next phase of your treatment, I really feel this is it!

I would love to go with you up to SF anytime you want me to. I love the city and we can do lunch with Laura :)

Anonymous said...

Sorry, Anonymous at 11:24 was me, Julie XOXOXO

Tiffany said...

Kelly, I am sorry to hear of your future surgeries, however, it sounds like this is going to be the final stretch before you reach the finish line. I have friends and family who have checked out lots of "weapons" against cancer, including diet and accpuncture (some are cancer free now and some are still fighting). If you are looking for more, I'd be happy to find out what and where they have researched their "weapons".

My arms go out to you and squeeze you so tight. Your positive vibration is felt so far away...keep trusting.

Love you,
Tiff

Laurel said...

Kelly, you are 100% right - this road is longer than you had anticipated, but you're going to reach the end! Hang in there, keep fighting, and know that Brian and I are praying for you (I'll add a little prayer that a cancer-free diet isn't a Starbucks-free one!)

Megan Shanks said...

Hey Kelly. I love how through all of this chaos you are keeping your chin up and still able to see the bright side of things. You are lucky to have so much love and support. Hang in there and never stop fighting! Wishing you the best of recovery!

Megan S.

Anonymous said...

I know that the prayers and positive thoughts will continue until you get through this desert.

I also don't think you have to actually give up Starbucks all together. There are many choices at Starbucks. xoxo

Anonymous said...

"Your living is determined not so much by what life brings to you as by the attitude you bring to life; not so much by what happens to you as by the way your mind looks at what happens. "
~ Kahlil Gibran

I believe I never would have known quite how incredible a person you are if it weren't for this experience and your willingness to share your adventure. Thank you for that. You are true inspiration.

Anonymous said...

Kelly & Manny~
I will keep praying for you both. Your positivity and strength will help you beat this devilish disease. I am so glad to hear about you going to church and you are right, God is on your side. Please keep having faith. There is something I want you to do. Instead of thinking I can't do these things right now. Think, I WILL work, I WILL swim, I WILL start a family, I WILL lose weight. Say those words everyday and imagine it when you say it!!! Believe!!
I love you both and I am always here for you!!
Love~ Valerie

Anonymous said...

Stay positive and strong. When you are done and cured from this disease i think you should write a book about your journey. It would be a great inspirational story for everyone that is battling with this disease. We love you and we are praying that soon it will all be over. Can't wait to see you guys.
We love you.
Tim, Ligia and the kids.

Mark Silva said...

Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in getting up every time we do. - Confucius

Kelly you keep getting up and as many say, you are a huge inspiration for us all...You are always in my positive thoughts on getting to the Light, the end of the desert. I love you cousin, and you are a HUGE inspiration to me too.

Love,
Cousin Marky

Anonymous said...

You are such an amazing soul. Keep your head up Kelly. You are so inspiring. We pray for you every day. HillaryL

Anna F said...

Kelly-
You are in Stephen and my thoughts and prayers constantly. As well as our families. Keep up th fight and you will find the end to your desert, I just know it.

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